Negative

I’m feeling extremely negative right now. I have no idea why either. I was fine one second then the next I’m extremely grumpy.  Part of this may be because I’ve not had any sleep yet. This not sleeping at night or sleeping an hour or two is for the birds.  I can’t understand why I can’t sleep.  I’m STILL not feeling well, running a fever off and on. Low grade but still a fever. I’m weak, every single time I eat no matter what it is I have back door issues immediately.  Sometimes before I’m even done eating it starts.  I’ve gotten to the point where I will only eat once a day because of the severity of the diarrhea after I eat.  It’s just not worth it, when I have to deal with bloating, the pain in my stomach, and then running to the bathroom several times after I eat.

This has been going on for so long I’ve lost count. I see one of my many docs on the 14th so I’m really hoping she can figure out what is going on with me.

My house is a mess because I don’t have the energy to do a whole lot and I don’t have the energy to force anyone to do their chores.  That might be part of my problem too. A clean home is a happy home. Or so they say and mine has stuff all over the place.   Last night I was in the kitchen and I almost fell. If it hadn’t been for Emma being behind me I would have. My body just didn’t want to stand anymore.  

On a positive note, Zoey and Guess seem to be getting along for the most part. Shadow is scared of her still and Lilly well, she barks at her acting all big and bad but when it comes right down to it she’s scared too.   There hasn’t been one cat fight though. They just look at each other and hiss and growl so that’s good. I know in time they will all if not get along then live remotely in peace. LOL