Pain

I haven’t been feeling the best the last few days.  A little bit more pain then usual and just felt blah. That is until late last night. I’m in so much pain it’s unreal.  I fell asleep last night about 8:30pm and woke up at 10:30pm with a horrible stomach ache. Yep IBS hit once again. 

So it’s now almost 8:00am and I still haven’t been back to sleep. Not from the lack of trying. I had just started to finally doze off and the alarm went off to get the girls up for school.  Sighs…….. As soon as they left I went back to bed but all I did was toss and turn.   The pain is unbearable today.  I feel like my breath is being taken away it’s so intense.

Some of you may wonder what I’m yapping about, why am I in so much pain. Well, I have an invisible illness called Fibromyalgia.  It affects every one differently, but one thing in common is that it does at some point affect the way you live your life.  On top of Fibro I also have a slew of health problems that cause pain as well. I’m never pain free but usually not in this much pain. I’m on a lot of meds that while it helps a bit with the pain it makes me drowsy and affects the quality of my life.  Then I have days like today where I can’t get any relief from the pain. Thank goodness these days are few and far between.  I couldn’t live like this every day.

 

I feel like I have fire shooting from my lower back, down my left leg and out the bottom of my foot (nerve pain), I have the muscle spasm through out my entire  back, feels like someone has a vise grip on the top of my spine and they keep tightening it, then what ever is going on with neck where I can’t move it normal. It’s sort of like when you get a kink in your neck but different. Hard to explain. All of this pain is so intense right now I feel like I’ve been kicked in the gut and my breath is being taken away. 

I have a feeling it’s going to be a really long day. Sighs……..

Chaos

 

chaos

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cha·os

noun

1.a state of utter confusion or disorder; a total lack of organization or order.

2.any confused, disorderly mass: a chaos of meaningless phrases.

3.the infinity of space or formless matter supposed to have preceded the existence of the ordered universe.

4.( initial capital letter ) the personification of this in any of several ancient Greek myths.

5.Obsolete . a chasm or abyss.

That pretty much sums up my life these days. Complete and utter chaos. Figuratively and mentally. Trust me it’s pretty scary in my head right now. So many thoughts going in so many directions that I haven’t been able to write a single blog. Well, that is until tonight.

 

Since I’ve come out of the proverbial broom closet I thought it was time to seriously look into getting an array of jewelry and trinkets that represents me.  I went to my favorite site for all things hand made etsy.com and only looked for a second and fell in love with two items. I thought I better stop looking before drool started to come rolling down my chin.  I’m gonna share with you the two items cause I know you are all just dying to know.

Full Moon Jewelry Set and Goddess Necklace They both just spoke to me so I thought I better stop looking before everything on that site spoke to me.

Girls are doing good. Their grades for the most part are A’s and B’s.  I’m working on getting Sarah into preschool.

I’m hoping to get out tomorrow and take some fall pics. I love all the colors this time of year.
I’ve been sick this past week. Finally getting over the cold in my throat and now getting a cold and cough. I’m thinking seriously cut me a break already would ya.

Liz is in Jamaica this week so I’m dog sitting Lilly. She’s been pretty good. Sounds like Liz has been having a good time. Nice for her to get away and de-stress a bit.