Hobgoblin

I’ve been getting the Word of the Day in my e-mail for about two years now.  It’s nice to learn new words, whats so great about this is if you can’t pronounce it in your head there is a link to click on so you can hear it.

Anyway…today’s word made me giggle so I thought I would share it with ya’ll.

Word of the Day

October 31

hobgoblin\HAHB-gahb-lin\

noun

1 :

a mischievous goblin

2 :

a source of fear, perplexity, or harassment

Max was convinced that hobgoblins had taken over his computer, which was why it was flashing garbled error messages.

"For one thing, the turtle was an enjoyable hobgoblin for the kids who swim in the lake. They used to stand atop the floating dock looking out anxiously to see if the turtle was nearby and it added an element of chills to an otherwise placid swimming experience." — From an article by Scott Gerschwer in the Redding Pilot (Connecticut), September 9, 2010

While a goblin is traditionally regarded in folklore as a grotesque, evil, and malicious creature, a hobgoblin tends to be more about creating mischief. (The character of Puck from Shakespeare’s A Midsummer Night’s Dream might be regarded as one.) First appearing in English in 1530, "hobgoblin" combined "goblin" with "hob," a word meaning "sprite" or "elf" that derived from "Hobbe," a nickname for Robert. "Goblin" derived via Middle English and Medieval Latin from the Greek word "kobalos," meaning "rogue." The American writer Ralph Waldo Emerson famously applied the word’s extended sense in his essay Self-Reliance: "A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds, adored by little statesmen and philosophers and divines."

Twas The Eve Of Samhain

 

’Twas the evening of Samhain, and all through the place
Were Pagans preparing the ritual space.
The candles were set in the corners with care,
In hopes that the Watchtowers soon would be there.
We all had our robes on, as is habitual
And had just settled down and were starting our ritual
When out on the porch there arose such a chorus
That we went to the door, and waiting there for us
Were children in costumes of various kinds
With visions of chocolate bright in their minds.

In all of our workings, we’d almost forgot,
But we had purchased candy, we’d purchased a LOT
And so, as they flocked from all over the street,
They all got some chocolate or something else sweet.
We didn’t think twice of delaying our rite,
Kids just don’t have this much fun every night.
For hours they came, with the time-honored schtick,
Of giving a choice: a treat or a trick.
As is proper, the parents were there for the games,
Watching the children and calling their names.
“On Vader, On Leia,
On Dexter and DeeDee,
On Xena, on Buffy,
On Casper and Tweety!
To the block of apartments on the neighboring road
You’ll get so much candy, you’ll have to be towed!”

The volume of children eventually dropped,
And as it grew darker, it finally stopped.
But as we prepared to return to our rite,
One child more stepped out of the night.
She couldn’t have been more than twelve or thirteen.
Her hair was deep red, and her robe, forest green
With a simple gold cord tying off at the waist.
She’d a staff in her hand and a smile on her face.
No make-up, nor mask, or accompanying kitsch,
So we asked who she was; she replied, “A Witch!
And no, I don’t fly through the sky on my broom,
I only use that thing for cleaning my room.
My magical powers aren’t really that neat,
And I won’t threaten tricks; I’ll just ask for a treat.”
We found it refreshing, so we gave incense cones,
A candle, a crystal, a few other stones,
And the rest of the candy which might fill a van
She turned to her father, a man dressed as Pan
And laughed, “Yes, I know, Dad, it’s past time for bed,”
And started to leave, but she first turned and said,
“I’m sorry for further delaying your rite.
Blessed Samhain to all, and a magical night.”

Charlie St. Cloud and dog food

I finished reading Charlie St. Cloud a few days ago.  I’ve seen the previews for the movie and really want to see it. So the next best thing will waiting for it to come out on DVD is reading the book. The book was way better then I imagined it to be and I’m really looking forward to the movie.

It’s about tragic lose and finding true love even under the most unexpected circumstances. Learning to let go and live again.  I think everyone will come home with something from this.

I have a couple of freebies for you tonight. One is a free sample of dog food and the other is a full size calendar.

For those of you looking for a 2011 calendar with a new recipe featured each month then this one is for you. It’s from Betty Crocker and I’ve all ready signed up for mine. So just take a stroll over to Betty Crocker and sign up.

I have another goodie for those of you with dogs. It’s a free sample of Rachel Rays dog food. Just hop on over to her site and sign up.

 

No Limit

 

No limit

There is no limit to how much love your heart can hold. So put a little more love in your life right now.

There is no limit to how much beauty you can admire. So make a point in each moment to see some new beauty you've never noticed before.

There is no limit to how much joy you can experience. So go ahead and feel the joy that lives inside, as you generously let it flow out to the whole world.

There is no limit to kindness, to hope, or to faith. There is no limit to the goodness and value that you can imagine.

Though some things in this world are occasionally in short supply, there is no limit to the best things in life. There is no limit to what really matters.

Treasure those good things that have no limit. For there is no limit to the richness they can bring.

My Secret Fetish

So today on facebook I’ve been asking my friends what they think my secret fetish is. One suggested Rick Springfield, well he WAS my fetish as a teen but nope not Rick.  Others suggested facebook, tags, really the things they came up with were pretty good but no one got it.

A bit of background on my “fetish” before I reveal. This started as a child and has evolved over the years.  This fetish can be cheap or expensive. I can get it almost anywhere.

My secret fetish is…………..

 

 

 

 

 

 

BOOKS!!! I have books ALL over my room. Very embarrassing to have company see it.  I took a few pics to share with all of you.

This pile is next to my bed. I know, I know, it’s not even organized to the naked eye. I have a buttload of bucks and have only read a few of them.  I only will read a book once then I share it with someone else only keeping a select few.

Most of these books I haven’t read yet. Some I’ve read and am keeping, a few are ready to be sent to friends. Most are waiting to be read. Now if you were to ask me I would tell you I don’t have a thing to read.

I am always buying books. I just can’t help myself. I’m like a junkie trying to get their next fix.

I am an avid reader. I’m worried something will happen and I will no longer be able to buy books so I keep buying and buying and buying.

So for all you perverted people out there thinking it was something naughty, now you know. Just boring ole books.

Really?

I need to learn to let things go. There is this girl who is going around on twitter asking all these big names to retweet that she is selling bracelets to help raise funds for her cousin who has thyroid cancer. That in it’s self is not what upset me.  What upset me is she’s using all the wrong colors.  She’s also got a “guy” version out. I mean seriously? Would you make a blue breast cancer bracelet? Besides the original colors are all wrong too. She doesn’t have a paypal account you have to e-mail her for her to get her po box addy. She is charging 3-5 bucks depending on which bracelet you get and 3 bucks for shipping.  I just have a feeling she’s not on the up and up on this. If you were selling something for someone for something as important as this, wouldn't you make sure you had the colors right?

You know normally I would see something like that and say oh bother and go about my way. But omg this has me seething. Which is why I’m blogging about it. Thinking maybe if I get it out of my system I can let it go.

Am I angry because I have been dealing with thyroid cancer for the last year? Am I angry because my meds are messing me up? LOL Seriously I need to get a grip and let it go.

Why get upset over something I can’t change. We are talking under 10 bucks that people would be out. While to me $10 I a lot of money, most people can shrug that off if they don’t get what they pay for. So why am I obsessing over this?

I even went as far as to e-mail her and tell her that her colors were off and sent her a link to the official thyroid cancer website. I was very nice about it and told her that my heart goes out to her cousin blah blah blah.

See this is why I go to therapy. LOL I will be so happy to be able to once again not obsess over things that don’t involve me and for those that do just learn to let things go that I can’t change.

Grumpytitis

I’m incredibly grumpy this morning. I had a really hard time going to sleep last night. Finally was able to get to sleep about two only to be woken up an hour later by Justin’s phone. 

Justin’s been working with a friend on his semi doing the pick up and deliveries so he has some early mornings. Today being one of them. 

It took me a few to realize it was Justin’s phone and not mine even though it sounded different. Never the less it didn’t matter I was up.  I got up went pee then back to bad where I tossed and turned for an hour. Started getting a stomach ache which lead to back door issues. Up again to take care of that.  Then back to bed to toss and turn until my alarm went off at 5:30 to get the girls up.  Normally when the girls get on the bus for school I can go and get a few hours sleep because Sarah sleeps in.

Well, not today. I have a doctors appt. in Cedar Rapids and it takes an hour to get there.  Then about 10 minutes to walk to where it is located in the hospital.  I pray I don’t doze while driving. I've done that before, actually a few times.  I’m not even really supposed to be driving that far because I do have issues with staying awake in the car. That’s been going on for several years. Doc says I have a mild case of narcolepsy.

So anyway, because I’ve been having anxiety issues lately I’m feeling anxious about the whole thing which in turn is making me grumpy. I’m tired of not being in charge of my own body.  Oh well, what can ya do?

I have a few free samples for you this morning.

The first one is Bees Wax Salve. Go to the bottom of the page and send them a e-mail with all your info and why you would like to try their product.

Second one is a sample of Don’t Disturb Me which is a natural sleeping aid.

A have a few blogs that I wanna do, maybe I’ll get them done today.

Random

I use Live Writer to write all my blogs then it uploads them to my blog. Much easier to do and I have a bit more control over how things look.  Well I updated yesterday and everything is looking way different. I have even more options. I think I’m gonna like the newest version.

The anti-biotic the doc has me on is making nauseated. I guess that’s a small price to pay for getting better.  I don’t have to take the stuff that turns my pee orange anymore so that’s a huge improvement. Now if I could just stop being so tired we might be getting somewhere.

This came in my e-mail today and I got a good giggle from it. Yes I’m deranged like that.

I just know if I had seen it in person I probably would have laughed so hard I would have peed.

I have a freebie for all you dog lovers. But this is a must hurry. Go and get a free treat for your favorite pooch but supplies are limited. A free sample from Doggie Delights 

That’s it for now.

You have A…………….UTI

If you read my previous blog you know I had a really long night last night.  I didn’t get any sleep. Now by no sleep, I actually mean I got zero, zip, nadda.  I didn’t think 8:00am was ever going to get here. It finally did and  I called the Doctor’s office, they told me to come in at 8:40. I needed to shower and Liz needed to shower, plus we are about 12 minutes away.  Well, because Liz and I are so good we were both able to get a shower, get dressed and arrive at the doc office with one minute to spare. 

Once I got there they sent me straight back to give a urine sample and I got to see the doc right away. He said I was passing 1 inch clots in my urine. He knew I was feeling pretty rough.

We talked about why I might be getting so many of these, what to do about it and some preventive things I can do at home to help prevent more.  He said that it’s possible that I never got the first one from June cleared all the way. So he was sending my sample in for a culture. He said it takes 48-72 hours to get the results.  Then we would know exactly what we were dealing with and if it was resistant to the last two rounds of meds I had been on for the previous infections. The Doc said we of course can’t wait that long to treat me for this infection so he gave me a different anti-biotic then what I had been on an some pills that turn my pee orange that helps with the pain.

Once I’m done with the meds then he wants me to come back in and give another sample of my urine just to double check the infection is cleared up.

I’m really wishing they would have done it the last two times I had infections but whatever they are doing it now.

For preventive maintenance I will be taking AZO Cranberry plus urinary Health Promoting Probiotic & Vitamin C. I can take two to four tabs a day.   Cranberry Juice makes me ill so I’m lucky they have something like this out. It was about $7 bucks for 50 tabs.

I got home about 10:45am, updated my facebook and went to bed. I was able to get about 4hours sleep. I’m still exhausted though.

I could go into more detail but this blog is already long enough. So I’ll sign off here

UTI

If you read my last blog you know that I have another bladder infection. Since I have to pee every 10-15 minutes I’m not going to be getting much sleep tonight. 

I tried to pixel but just not feeling it. I could work on my website, not feeling that either.  At this point I’m just trying to get through the night so I can go to the doctors tomorrow. I can’t afford another trip to the ER.

I looked up home remedies for UTI’s and they gave a few good suggestions.  I don’t have any cranberry juice, don’t have any baking soda, I don’t have any of the meds they were speaking of. So I’m just drinking lots and lots of water to try and flush the bacteria out.  Drinking so much water is kind of a catch 22.  It makes me pee more which is not what I really wanna do cause it hurts, but it’s supposed to help with flushing stuff out.

If I can’t find something else to occupy me I may end up blogging my little heart out. So I apologize in advance if I do.

Well, off to pee again.

Life as you know it

Life. You know the saying “Life is what you make it, always has been, always will be” I wonder how true that statement really is. Sure we have a certain amount of control over our lives. But what happens when bad things keep happening to good people?

I try to live my life the best I can. But in spite of it all I am miserable.  My health is not the best, I’m in pain 24/7. Sometimes the pain is so bad that it makes it hard to breath and I break out in a sweat.

Every time I turn around I am getting diagnosed with something new. Well, damn it I’m tired of it. I’m 39 and I want my life back. I want to be able to walk around the mall, to go to the park with the kids. I want to feel human again.

Over the past few months the pain has escalated to an all time high.  I can’t sit for long, I can’t stand for long, I can’t lay for long. I’m a mess. Now they say I have the very beginning of kidney disease. WTF, really? Yeah, lets add that to everything else.  I am also in the early stages of Rheumatoid Arthritis. Yay me~ NOT! My health pisses me off.  Why isn’t there a miracle drug out there that I can take and boom I can function again like a normal person?

Lucky for me, ( I guess) that the pain has gotten so bad I’ve FINALLY after 8yrs have been referred to a pain specialist. Who in return referred me to a pain physiologist.

I was really pissed when he first referred me to her. But as time went on and I got closer to my appt I realize how much I needed to see her. To have someone to talk to and for once have it be all about me. 

My first appt came and I arrived 30minutes early. Now for those of you that know me personally know that I am late for everything.  Everyone jokes that I would be late to my own funeral. So she comes out and gets me early and we ended up having an hour in a half session.  She is very likable and I connected with her from the second she introduced herself to me.  She didn’t even have to ask me to talk I just started opening up and spewing forth all this information.

I’ve had a really rough life. I know what your thinking who hasn’t. But if I told you everything I’ve been through you would be like oh shit, she HAS had it rough. Do I tell you this for sympathy. No, in fact I hate sympathy I don’t handle it well for some reason.

So back to my appt. she suggest that at some point in my therapy that we try some hypnosis. Right away  I said no. I not only said no I was like hell no. She said ok, can I ask you why? I told her no way no how was I giving up control like that.

She smiled and said it’s not like what you see on tv and that she thought it would really gap the bridge to my process in healing and feeling better.  She gave me a website to look at so I can get some more info into what she does. She said she wasn’t going to push hypnosis but at the same time she was going to suggest it again down the road. Here is the site she gave me. www.asch.net

She’s a very busy woman and my next appt isn’t until Dec. so I have a while to think on it. One moment I’m like YES, we will do it. Then the next I’m like no, there are things I have blocked and I don’t want to remember them.  All that is for another blog.

So now that I’ve ranted about random shit and it’s been all about ME I kinda feel a bit better.  I just might do this more often but I fear if I did I would lose all my readers. LOL

Anyway….it’s after 1 in the morning and I have to pee again for the 4th time in 30 minutes. Yep, getting another bladder infection.  So I’ll end this….for now anyway. ;)

I Pledge Allegiance

The above cartoon was sent to me the other day and it really says so much.  I can remember every morning in school we said the pledge of allegiance as soon as the bell rang. 

I recently found out my 8yr old doesn’t even know it all the way.  So tell me how on earth is keeping this out of or schools doing us as American’s any good? What happened to respect?  To me it’s not only disrespectful to America it’s disrespectful to those who have served our country. There is no draft, our men and women are joining because they want to make things better.

This doesn’t mean I support the war, that is a whole different blog. But I DO and always WILL support our soldiers. My oldest son is on his second tour in Iraq right now.  I’m so proud of him that I am always telling everyone that will listen that he’s in the Army, doing his second tour in Iraq as a combat medic. (See, how I slipped that in ;) )

Does my son want to be over in Iraq right now? Heck no. But he does it because thats his job.  He does it without complaining and does what is needed of him.

I proudly fly my flag outside every day and it bothers me to see so many houses without flags.

I implore everyone to go to the store and buy a flag. It doesn’t have to be a big one, it can be a small one. For those in apts or in houses where they can’t mount something to the side of the house to put the flag on. Get a little one and put it in your window. Put one in your garden. I don’t care what you do but show that your proud to be an American. That my son is not over there for nothing. That the friends he’s lost in this awful war was not for nothing.

Do YOU remember every word to the Pledge of Allegiance?

It’s a little After 2 and I need…..to Sleep!

Well, it’s a little after 2 in the morning and I’m still up. I have to be up to get the kids up for school in a little over 3 hours. Sighs….I keep saying ok I’m on my way to bed. Then something pops up and I don’t make it there.

I did accomplish something though. As you can see I’ve given my blog a face lift.  Isn’t it so purty? All decked out for Halloween!

So in honor of my new theme on my blog I thought I would give ya’ll a preview of the girl’s costumes.

Little Miss Sarah is a witch. ;) I swear I had nothing to do with it! *blinks innocently*

This is the back of her cape.

The front, she will have just a smidge of glitter on and her hair will be pulled back but this is pretty much it. Got it at Walmart. :)

Here is Miss Sophie’s.  She likes the dark stuff and picked it out. She calls it Death’s Bride.

The front and yes it’s supposed to show the shoulders.

The awesome sleeves. She loves that part. She’s gonna have on black nail polish, black lipstick, mascara, eyeliner and dark eyeshadow. She has it all planned out.  Hey, what can I say. It’s Sophie!

Ok I’m really on my way to bed now.  Chow!

Being from Iowa, I absolutely love this tag!!!

Don’t Drink The……….Pee!

So for the next 24 hours I will be peeing into the white “hat”. I warned everyone in the house to NOT drink whats in the orange container.  They all said why. So I told them that if they choose to drink out of the container they will be drinking my urine. They all looked at me with blank stares and then said ewwwwwwwwwww why would there be pee in there.  So I explained that the doc was testing my pee and I had to keep it in that jug.

Emma looks at me all serious like and said well, you really need to mark it. I was like, Emma I already told you NOT to drink out of it so why would I need to mark it.  She never did answer me. LOL

Tomorrow morning I have to take everything in, get some blood drawn.  Fill out all the wonderful paper work and be on my merry way.

In the Dead of the Night

As I start to write this blog it’s 7:45am. I’ve been up since midnight. Sighs… I fell asleep a little after 9 last night while watching Psychic Kids. My back was hurting so bad it’s unreal.  It felt like my back was breaking in half.

While I was laying in bed watching tv in the middle of the night Sarah wakes up.  She had gone to sleep about 8:30. She woke up at 1 this morning and is still awake. I will give her this, she laid in bed and stayed quiet until about 4 this morning. Then she sat up and started playing in bed. At 4:30 I figured screw it. I have to be up in an hour to get the girls up for school I might as well stop trying to sleep and let Sarah get up.

Sarah was so happy to get up. She was smiling from ear to ear. She decided that she wanted to sit at the table and color so I gave her a piece of paper and a marker.

Here she is at 5 in the morning all chipper and happy.

After I got the girls up at 5:30 Sarah got her toy piano out and would play a few notes then scribble on her paper. If I hadn’t been busy trying to get Sophie to actual to something other then sit on the couch in a zombie state I would have take a video.

Speaking of Sophie. When she got up and Sarah saw her hair she couldn't stop giggling. So I, of course took a pic.

So the girls are now at school and Sarah is winding down.  I’ve threatened Justin that if he makes any noise or tries to wake us up once we get to sleep he will die a slow and painful death.

I’m off to put Sarah back to bed and I’m going to attempt to get some sleep myself. With the pain in my back I’m not sure how easy it will be but I’m exhausted so hoping that will help some. So I’m gonna sign off for now. :)

Oh my ….Kidney’s

Today is turning out to not be a good day.  I woke up this morning in pain. Ok, that in it’s self is not new. But today I can feel the pain in my kidney’s. Which really concerns me.

When the doc first told me he thought my kidneys weren’t doing so good. I went straight to the internet and looked up signs of problems with your kidney’s. I thought well, surly they are wrong as “I” don’t have any of those signs.

It’s been about two weeks give or take a few days since I was told and looked up the info. When you already have back pain kidney pain on top of it isn’t exactly comfortable. Then in my paranoid mind I think only the worse. Sighs….

Today I can’t get Sophie to do her chores. Ok, lets face it. I can’t get Sophie to do her chores any day.  She is a very stubborn 8yr old and her father has got her to the point that she knows that if she crys or lets it go long enough it will get done.  I could kick his butt for that. But no matter what I have said he kept doing things for her.  So now I can’t get her to do anything cause she’s gonna tell her Dad and he of course won’t make her do a darn thing.  Then I get yelled at because she’s only 8 what should I expect. Ummm…well picking up the toys out of the living room I don’t think is to much to ask of an 8yr old. Heck Sarah is 2 and she’s better at picking up then Sophie.

I’m feeling pretty stressed and I just wanna go take a nap because my meds make me sleepy. Going to take a nap isn’t an option at the moment.  I really need a xanax and I know if I take one I’m gonna be even sleepier.  I just can’t win.

I have a few blogs I wanna write about my health, my new therapy, just life in general.  Blogging for me is my form of relaxation but I’m so stressed that I have a hard time forming my thoughts well enough to put them out there. Thats why sometimes you will see several blogs in a day and then go a few days with nothing.  I write as my mind lets me. 

I’ve gotten to the point that I can’t even mediate. But thats for another blog.

In love!

I was  browsing various things on Etsy and I fell in love with this necklace!!!! Sucks to be poor.

She’s got better pics on her site of it. click “here” Page will open up in a new window.

I’ve never been much of jewelry person but I find that lately I am eyeing a lot of different items.  I guess I’m changing. LOL

Health Update

I went to see my regular doctor on Tuesday. The meds for the fibro are working well so thats good.  He’s referred me to a rheumatologist.  I have my first appt. with him next Thursday.  When they called to set up the appt. with me they told me it might just be a one time thing. All depends on if they think my regular doc can monitor my RA or if it’s bad enough I need to continue to see the specialist.

My Dr. repeated some tests on my kidney’s and once again they came out bad.  I’m still spilling protein and the blood test shows elevated inflammation.  What does that mean? Well, I really don’t know much. It appears my kidney’s are not functioning as they should.  I have to go to the lab at my local hospital and pick up a container then I have to pee in it for the next 24 hours and then turn it back into the lab. 

Today I have my first appt. with the psychologist. I’m not sure if it’s a one time appt. or if she will be someone I will be seeing on a regular basis. She’s specialized in people with chronic pain.   The specialist I see for pain thinks that I’m far to stressed (ya think?), that I’m not handling the fact that I’m in pain all the time well (ummm does anyone handle being in pain all the time well), and that I’m depressed.  I have to be there super early to fill out registration forms then a bunch of papers on top of that. Probably my health history and my mental health history. 

I failed the first mental health form I had to fill out which is one of the reasons why I’m being sent to her. LOL I seem to be failing a lot of tests these days. 

My pain has gotten worse over the last few months. I can’t sit up for long and I can’t make it through the day without a nap.  Not sure if the nap thing is from the pain, the pills, or a combo of them both.

I AM very grumpy all the time these days and having issues with seeing the bright side of things so I’m hoping this woman can get me back on the right track.

On a good note. I DID win those tickets for the Papa Roach concert.  I still don’t really know who he is. Emma played a song by them for me and I have heard it on the radio.  I gave the tickets to Justin. I hope he has a good time tonight.  I dont think he’s ever been to a concert before.

Well, I could go on and on which tells me I need to blog more. But since I’ve all ready written a mini novel I’m gonna sign off here.

Papa Roach

No reason for the pic other then Sarah is just so dang cute. LOL

So I entered a contest to win concert tickets via facebook from a local radio station to see Papa Roach. Now in all honesty I don’t even really know who he is. I’m sure I’ve heard his songs before but it’s not clicking.

So according to the contest rules I am a winner. I’ve been waiting for the last hour for them to announce it or to contact me.  It’s driving me insane. 

I’m gonna give the tickets to Justin. With my health problems I wouldn’t be able to go anyway.  Justin is super excited too so I hope that I really did win.

I never win anything so I'm sitting here on pins and needles waiting. LOL

Wish me luck!!!!

10/8/2010 Angels

EARTH ELEMENT    Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Self-Liberation. Angelic Advice: In releasing yourself from the attachments of the past and worries about the future, we are able to live in and enjoy the present moment to its fullest. Let go of something today that you don't need anymore. Your angels wish you joy in: Cleansing. .

FIRE ELEMENT    Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Blessings. Angelic Advice: Blessings, like all of heaven's gifts, will find you more easily if you are holding your arms wide open. Raise up your arms and smile in joy - your blessings will start pouring down on you like gentle heavenly kisses. Your angels wish you joy in: Faith. .

AIR ELEMENT    Aquarius, Gemini, Libra

Your Guiding Angel Today is: The Angel of Orderliness. Angelic Advice: The angels are hiding things on you around your home and office. Getting your physical space in order will move any stale energy for you and allow you to discover some hidden items of interest and inspiration. There are many new angelic situations ready to come in for you if you have a place to put them. Your angels wish you joy in: Tidying up. .

WATER ELEMENT    Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Puppy Love. Angelic Advice: There is nothing more exciting and unconditional than puppy love. When we see a teenager's first crush we often just smile and dismiss it as "only puppy love" but intensity and delight is a wonderful feeling to recapture. Today, look at others in a love that is exuberant and unconditional. Your angels wish you joy in: Exciting Encounters. .

Oncologist

My oncologist called today.  They want me to call them back to see up appts to get my thyrogen shots and get set up for my whole body scan.  I didn’t catch the call so it went to voice mail. I had an instant anxiety attack at just the thought of going through all of that.

I know in my support group a lot of the members go through with it and it’s no big deal to them. To me it scares the shit outta me.  I don’t want that radiation pill in my body. With my back there is no way I can lay on that table for that long to get the scan. 

Going on the low iodine diet is expensive and time consuming.  I pretty much starved last time. There isn’t enough money to buy all the food my family needs and then to buy all the expense stuff I need to go on that diet. 

Most of all I don’t want that radiation in me. It scares the crap outta me.  I’ve been doing research and the Mayo clinic has early studies out saying as long as your blood work comes out good and your neck ultrasound looks good there is no reason to go through all of that. 

On top of being scared shitless about the WBS I have so many new health problems I just don’t know if I can handle it. 

I talked to my regular doctor about it a few months ago and he suggested I get the WBS as well, that the amount of radiation was small. 

I have to call my Oncologist back and I don’t know what to do.  She’s recommending I get it and my GP is as well. My gut tells me no.  Just writing this I”m feeling frantic and feel another anxiety attack brewing so I’m gonna end this blog here.

Daily Motivation 10/7/2010

Feel the purpose

There are times when nothing can hold you back. Imagine making today one of those times.

There are moments when you're able to focus with absolute clarity and act with maximum effectiveness. You can make this moment one of those moments.

What makes the critical difference that creates those times of optimum performance? What makes the difference is a clear and unambiguous connection to purpose.

When you're doing what you know is right, your natural ability to achieve becomes fully engaged. It pulls you successfully through whatever challenges you may encounter.

The way to make this day a day of spectacular achievement is to connect your actions with authentic positive purpose. Keep yourself aware of the good, solid meaningful reason behind what you do, and you'll do it with outstanding effectiveness.

Nothing can hold you back when the actions necessary to move forward are connected to the very essence of who you are. Feel the real purpose behind what you seek, and you will surely make it so.

10/7/2010 Angels

EARTH ELEMENT    Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Energy. Angelic Advice: You are buzzing with enthusiasm and energy and ready to share the excitement with all those who cross your path. Your desire to help others increases your own happiness. Plug in to the eternal source and SHINE! Your angels wish you joy in: Initiative. .

FIRE ELEMENT    Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Example. Angelic Advice: If others in your circle are not as spiritually evolved as you are, judge not. Maybe you can be an example in the course of your association. Know that a divine light exists even where it appears dark. Your angels wish you joy in: Helping someone see. .

AIR ELEMENT    Aquarius, Gemini, Libra

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Nourishment. Angelic Advice: While it is always good to treat others with compassion and kindness, today is the day to allow yourself to be pampered and cared for. Don't turn away help, but reach out and embrace it as your heavenly legacy. In so doing, you also give others a gift. Your angels wish you joy in: Being loved and cared for. .

WATER ELEMENT    Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Delight. Angelic Advice: Delight is a gift we can give to ourselves. Allowing ourselves to fully embrace our joys and pleasures, no matter how big or how small, is a gift to ourselves and the best thank-you to the universe. Dance with delight for something today Your angels wish you joy in: Exuberance. .

Smile

The other day Justin was eating dinner and he looked over and Guess was sitting there very patiently. She was looking at him and smiling so pretty. We were able to capture it before she stopped. LOL Justin thought she did such a good job at pretending not to beg he gave her a bit of his food. What a pushover! LOL

 

You may have noticed I’ve have added a few categories to my blog line up.  You can now come here daily and get your dose of motivation and your angel scope. I will also be posting freebies and helpful household hints  as I come across them.   For now on the right hand side you can type something into the search bar and it will bring it up. Say you want to see just the angel posts. Then type in angel and it will bring it up.  The next time I change my layout I’m going to have it so the categories show up so all you have to do is click on the one your interested in and it will pull those posts up.

I find blogging as a way of relaxation so there will be days you might see several small blogs from me or you might get just the daily doses, maybe even some long winded blogs. I do have a tendency to go on and on so those will be more then likely what you’ll get. LOL

I’m having some major health issues and to bring down my stress level I’m going to try and blog more so be on the look out. I really enjoy reading comments so feel free to comment on a blog or just leave me a note on the left saying you were here.

You can also sign up to have my blog delivered to your inbox daily. Just click the subscribe button on the upper left hand. Feel free to give my link out to your friends so they can stop by too. 

I love to read others blogs so if you have a blog and I don’t already read it feel free to leave me the link so I can stop by. :)

I hope everyone has a beautiful day!

How To Seal A Bag

The person who first thought of the idea must be given an award for  originality!!!
Wow, what a fantastic idea!  Do not  have to grapple with rubber bands that are tied too tightly.
How to seal  a bag and make it air-tight!

Cut up a  disposable water bottle and keep the neck and  top, as in  photo.
Insert the plastic bag through  the neck and screw the top – to seal.

The bottle is made to be  air-tight, such that water will not leak, the secret lies with the top  and screw!

This is a great idea to share. Good for us and the environment too.

10/6/2010 Daily Angel

This is something new to my blog too. I will try and post the daily angel every day.

EARTH ELEMENT    Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Expansion. Angelic Advice: If you are feeling bored or discontent in any area, particularly relationships, put some effort into developing some new interests. Improvement is limited only by your own attitudes.Breathe deeply and expand your aura and your possibilities. Your angels wish you joy in: Dissolving boundaries. .

FIRE ELEMENT    Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Completions. Angelic Advice: Finishing what you started brings you a sense of completion. Today, you can take all the dreams that you have forgotten and bring them back to life so you can see them to fulfillment. You have the spark of divine life flowing through your work today. Your angels wish you joy in: Manifestation. .

AIR ELEMENT    Aquarius, Gemini, Libra

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Revelation. Angelic Advice: Whatever direction your life's journey takes today, look for lessons to be learned and important messages to be revealed. Startling new inspirations may come in the quietest moments and daydreams. Your angels wish you joy in: New Perspectives. .

WATER ELEMENT    Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Adventure. Angelic Advice: The angels are with you as you give yourself permission to explore what is new and unknown in your life. Go ahead and explore the priceless spirit treasures that are waiting for you! Follow a rainbow, or follow the yellow brick road - and let your soul fly. Your angels wish you joy in: Freedom. .

10/6/2010 Daily Motivation

As you noticed this is something new I’ve added to my blog. I’m going to try and post some Daily Motivation every day. So stop back by daily and get your dose of motivation. :)

Solidly on your way

You may be tired, or discouraged, or frustrated, or uncomfortable. No matter what, your best option is to move positively forward.

Hanging on to past disappointments will only hold you back. Taking comfort in being a victim gives you no real comfort at all.

Staying safe by never venturing out, by never taking risks, is the riskiest thing you can do. Because it guarantees that you won't get anything accomplished.

It takes effort to move forward, as well as courage and determination. Fortunately, you are filled with courage and determination, and you are able to make whatever effort you choose.

Yes, you may feel some fear and trepidation, yet courage is not the lack of fear. Your courage gives you the ability to feel your fear, to listen to what it has to say, to allow it to prepare you, and to move ahead.

You know what you desire and you know why you desire it. Set your sights on the goal, and know that you're solidly on your way toward its achievement.

10/05/2010 Tuesdays Angels

EARTH ELEMENT    Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Wish Craft. Angelic Advice: Today you can make your dreams come true if you but express your deepest wishes and acknowledge that they CAN manifest! The power of belief is your magic wand. Your angels wish you joy in: Believing. .

FIRE ELEMENT    Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Control. Angelic Advice: Sometimes we achieve our greatest sense of power when we give up trying to control others. You are empowered with self-control today giving you an advantage that will bring you success. Your angels wish you joy in: Empowerment. .

AIR ELEMENT    Aquarius, Gemini, Libra

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of Moonbeams. Angelic Advice: When the night falls, we often forget to look out the window and watch the play of moonbeams on the shadows of the world. However, when we are aware, we can see the beauty and mystery that lightens up every night with deliciously mystical moonbeams of hope.Your angels wish you joy in: Dancing in the Dark. .

WATER ELEMENT    Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Your Guiding Angel today is: The Angel of the Elements. Angelic Advice: This angel appears to inspire you to appreciate the air that you breathe, the water that you drink, the food that you eat and the hearth that keeps you warm. Take pleasure in all the gifts that spirit has given you to have a rich and wonderful life. Your angels wish you joy in: Giving Thanks. .

Female Points System

I got this in my e-mail and I just had to share!!!!

Make the woman happy. 
Do something she likes and you get points. 
Do something she dislikes and points are subtracted. 
You don't get any points for doing something she expects. Sorry, that's the way the game is played. 
Here is a guide to the point system: 
SIMPLE  DUTIES
You make the bed (+1)
You make the bed, but forget the decorative pillow (0)
You throw the bedspread over rumpled sheets (-1)
You go out to buy her what she wants (+5) in the rain (+8)
But return with beer (-5)
You check out a suspicious noise at night (+1)
You check out a suspicious noise, and it is nothing (0)
You check out a suspicious noise and it is something (+5)
You pummel it with iron rod (+10)
It's her pet (-20) 
SOCIAL  ENGAGEMENTS
You stay by her side the entire party (0)
You stay by her side for a while, then leave to chat with an old school friend (-2)
Named Tina (-10)
Tina is a dancer (-20)
Tina has silicone implants (-80)
HER  BIRTHDAY
You take her out to dinner (+2)
You take her out to dinner and it's not a sports bar (+3)
Okay, it's a sports bar (-2)
And it's all-you-can-eat night (-3)
It's a sports bar, it's all-you-can-eat night, and your face is painted the colors of your favorite team (-10)
A  NIGHT  OUT
You take her to a movie (+1)
You take her to a movie she likes (+3)
You take her to a movie you hate (+6)
You take her to a movie you like (-2)
It's called 'Death Cop' (-3)
You lied and said it was a foreign film about orphans (-15) 
YOUR  PHYSIQUE
You develop a noticeable potbelly (-15)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and exercise to get rid of it (+10)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and resort to baggy jeans and baggy Hawaiian shirts (-30)
You say, "It doesn't matter, you have one too." (-8000)
THE  BIG  QUESTION
She asks, "Do I look fat?" (-5) (Yes, you lose points no matter what)
You hesitate in responding (-10)
You reply, "Where?" (-35)
Any other response  (-20)
COMMUNICATION
When she wants to talk about a problem, you listen, displaying what looks like a concerned expression (0)
You listen, for over 30 minutes (+50)
You listen for more than 30 minutes without looking at the TV (+500)
She realizes this is because you have fallen asleep (-4000)

What the……..Horse?

Last Friday I was chatting on the phone when something caught my attention out of the corner of my eye.

I was like what in the world is it? I looked again and I thought wtf..no way. So I did a double take and yep it IS what I thought. There was horse in my yard looking in my window.  I said ummm Justin there is a horse in our yard. You better go round him up and get him back where he belongs.

So outside we go, me with camera in hand.

By the time we got out there the horse had moved on to other parts of the yard. Justin went over to pet it and was like I don’t know how to get him to go home.  He said I need a cowboy hat, I told him we didn’t have one, he said wait, let me go get a cigarette it’s the closet thing I have to a cowboy. So he went running inside to get a cancer stick and lite it on his way back to the horse.

While Justin was talking to the horse trying to figure out how to get him back where he belongs I told Emma to go get our neighbor  that was in charge of their care, because neither Justin nor I had a clue how to get him back home.

About that time all the other horses saw their buddy was out and said hey now I want out too.

Now the adventure starts. As you can see they had all pretty much broke out at this point. They went running down to the neighbors down the road. I’ll give them this they did all stay together.

Once they all broke loose the neighbor that was watching them was here and trying his best to get what he needed to gather them up.

The owners of the horses showed up at the exact time that they all went in up the drive to the house up the road.

They had been in a horrible motorcycle accident just 6 weeks prior and this was their first visit home. Note I said visit. They weren’t even allowed to stay as they have much more healing to do.  Not a welcome homecoming for them thats for sure.

So by now we have Justin, two neighbors and some random stranger trying to get these horses back where they belong. Oh, lets not forget our dog Guess.  The horses ran all the way down to the end of the road which is about a mile before they were caught. 

After what seemed like an eternity I see them all coming back with the horses a few went home like good little horses but there were a few that were not quite ready to give up their freedom. They came back into my yard.

You can see Guess in front of the horses. She was trying to round them up. I guess she was a big help in getting them back home. She kept running around them barking and redirecting them. Kinda cool to see it in action.

Here is the dog of the hour all worn out from working so hard. LOL

They did manage to get the horses back where they belonged and all ended well.

I felt really sorry for Melody (the neighbor that had been in the accident) She wasn’t supposed to be running around and here she was trying to get these horses rounded up. She looked so white, I was afraid she was gonna pass out.  I really hope that all that running around didn’t set her back any in her recovery.

It’s not every day you see a horse looking at your through your window!