Roller Coaster

I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster for the last week. I’m not sure whats going on with me.  I’m super positive one second and just down right grumpy the next.  I want to go out and be with people at the same time I want to be left alone. Sighs…………

Even the animals are on my nerves. Today Lilly pooped on the couch. Seriously? Why on earth would she do that? There was a blanket on the couch so thank goodness it was on that but still. I was so angry at her.  What on earth was she thinking?

Zoey, omg all she does is eat and shit. If her cat bowl is empty she goes for the dog food. If that’s empty she will look for people food. If there is no people food then she will eat non food items. WTF! She seriously eats off and on all day.  Which of course sends her to the litter box to take several enormous poops. They are bigger then Lilly’s and she’s a puggle.

Then there is Guess, she is the gassiest dog on the face of this planet. She feels the need to be next to me at all times. Sharing her stench with me.

Then there is Shadow. The only animal that I’m not upset with.  She stays out of the way and at night comes and cuddles with me.

I see so many people who are so judgmental and bitter.  Life is just way to short for that.  If your unhappy with your life change it. You are the only one who has the power to do it.  Stop making excuses for yourself. I know this because for years I did just that. Well, I can’t change this because of blah blah.

A lot of my friends have noticed a change in me and you will continue to see changes.  I’ve ended some friendships and started new ones. I have been surrounding myself with some amazing people. They are good for the heart and soul.  I no longer worry if people like me or accept me. I am who I am.

I’ve recently came out of the broom closet. While close friends knew I was pagan to the rest of the world I hid it. I’ve gotten a lot of flack for this. All I have to say to these people, and you know who you are, it must be really sad having such a closed mind. 

So I end this rant of a blog with this…..

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will.