The post with no name

I’ve had a so many blogs floating around in my head but have been unable to put my thoughts into actual words.
I miss blogging, it’s always soothed my soul. I don’t do it for anyone other then myself. If other’s read it then great if not that’s good too.

Since the stroke I’ve been going through so much. My personality is changing. I seem to have no social filter. I’m exhausted all the time. I can’t tolerate any sort of heat.  I’m just plain miserable.

I’m still having some confusion issues and I have to search for words when I’m in a conversation because I can’t remember what things are called or what the word for what I’m saying is.
Case in point, I had gotten a message to my cell phone from twitter. I couldn’t read the word “twitter” I could see it  but what it was just was not clicking. I had to ask someone what it said.
Today I was trying to talk about my ankle and I couldn’t remember what it was called.
When that happens I get angry at myself and I just want to cry. 

Today I saw the doctor. My white count is still up. They can’t find a cause for it.  I am now a diabetic which I’m not handling well. I’m pissed off about it.  I’m just barley one but I’m still one. I have to test my blood once a day and take meds for it twice a day.
The meds make me sick, I get severe diarrhea from them and nausea. I already have IBS with diarrhea and this is making it worse. Way worse.

Tomorrow morning I have to start a beta blocker to see if we can get my heart beating as it should.  I’ve passed all the heart tests so they are assuming the thyroid meds I’m on are causing it. Since I have no thyroid I can’t go off of them.  Pharmacist said this pill will make me sleepy. As if I’m not already tired enough.

The kids and I haven’t done anything this summer because I can’t handle the heat at the moment and being insanely tired. I can’t even walk around Walmart. Not that I really want to, but still.

I’m still waiting for the results of my EEG. I had the test last Weds but still no results. Grrr…..

Tomorrow or actually later today since it’s 2:22am I have to get my yearly mammogram. I had told Liz I didn’t need her to drive since it’s in town but until I’m used to the beta blocker they don’t want me driving.  I’m not supposed to be driving at the moment at all anyway because of the confusion. Whatever…….

I’ll try and be a bit more positive in my next blog just having a woe as me sorta night.

Remember this is just my back up blog. My actual blog is hosted on my domain.  www.prettyinpinkpixels.com/blog