Pain

I haven’t been feeling the best the last few days.  A little bit more pain then usual and just felt blah. That is until late last night. I’m in so much pain it’s unreal.  I fell asleep last night about 8:30pm and woke up at 10:30pm with a horrible stomach ache. Yep IBS hit once again. 

So it’s now almost 8:00am and I still haven’t been back to sleep. Not from the lack of trying. I had just started to finally doze off and the alarm went off to get the girls up for school.  Sighs…….. As soon as they left I went back to bed but all I did was toss and turn.   The pain is unbearable today.  I feel like my breath is being taken away it’s so intense.

Some of you may wonder what I’m yapping about, why am I in so much pain. Well, I have an invisible illness called Fibromyalgia.  It affects every one differently, but one thing in common is that it does at some point affect the way you live your life.  On top of Fibro I also have a slew of health problems that cause pain as well. I’m never pain free but usually not in this much pain. I’m on a lot of meds that while it helps a bit with the pain it makes me drowsy and affects the quality of my life.  Then I have days like today where I can’t get any relief from the pain. Thank goodness these days are few and far between.  I couldn’t live like this every day.

 

I feel like I have fire shooting from my lower back, down my left leg and out the bottom of my foot (nerve pain), I have the muscle spasm through out my entire  back, feels like someone has a vise grip on the top of my spine and they keep tightening it, then what ever is going on with neck where I can’t move it normal. It’s sort of like when you get a kink in your neck but different. Hard to explain. All of this pain is so intense right now I feel like I’ve been kicked in the gut and my breath is being taken away. 

I have a feeling it’s going to be a really long day. Sighs……..