Update

It’s so hard to believe it’s Monday already. Where did the weekend go?
I’ve been in a lot of pain with some severe muscle spasms in my back. They are wrapping around to my ribs and taking my breath away.  The doctor put me on a cocktail of meds to try and help it and told me that my pain doc (which I see in a few days) could probably give me a shot of Botox into the offending muscle.  One of the meds is valium. I’ve never heard of it being a muscle relaxant before though. *shrugs*
  While I've been on xanax for a lot of years for my anxiety issues, valium works loads better. However, he doesn’t want to change me over and its just a temporary med. Darn it, lol.

I got a grand total of about 2 1/2hrs of sleep. Wont be able to go back for a nap after the girls leave for school as I have therapy today.  This will be my 3rd session and so far we haven’t made much head way. I have a feeling I will be going to her for awhile. Learning to deal with some past abuse issues and when you get down to it, I’ve been abused off and on since I was a small child. She feels revisiting my childhood and working through all of that will help with learning for me to be a bit more assertive with my feelings. I’m pretty much an in your face person these days so not sure how much more assertive she wants me to be. LOL

I had my stroke on June 29th and for the most point I’ve pretty much recovered. I recently found out I have two hemorrhages in left eye. Not sure if that’s from the stroke or not.  I’ve recovered full use of my left side though when I smile it’s still just a wee bit lop sided.  I am still having a problem with my social censor. I was way worse so that’s getting better but I have a long way to go.  I tend to tell someone about themselves a wee bit more then I probably should. Some people would see that as a good thing but it’s not when you can’t control it. There is a time and a place for everything. 

I haven’t had a lot of down time to blog lately or was to stressed to put my thoughts down in any sort of a coherent way. I’ve had so many things I’ve wanted to blog about and just never got around to it. However, with that being said. This is my 3rd blog in less then 24 hours. I really hope I can start doing this regularly again. It relaxes me and helps clear my mind.

As you see I’ve updated my blog with a cute holiday theme. Now to just get some Christmas shopping done. I keep putting it off and I’m running out of time. UGH!!!

Try and have a good Monday everyone!