Stressed as always

 

Well it’s Monday. Normally I would be dreading Monday.  However, this week I’m going to look on the bright side of things and try and have a good week.

Last Friday was one of the worse days of my life.  It’s wasn’t just one thing that happened it was many small things. One right after another.  It was like the more you roll a snowball in the snow the bigger it gets.

Started off bad first thing. I was having a hard time waking up to get the girls off to school cause I had only been asleep for about two hours. (Remember I have insomnia) I finally got the girls up and dragged myself over to the pc. Woke up a bit and wrote a blog. Found out my site was down.  It wasn’t back up until Sunday. I was not a happy camper. I pay for this site and domain and I expect to have it fully operational at all times.

Things just went downhill from there by the time I went to bed Friday/Saturday morning I was mentally exhausted and had a migraine.

I get up on Saturday hoping for a better day, though knowing it wouldn’t really be one after all that happened the day before. While it was a calmer day I was still super stressed with a ton on my mind.

I feel as if I’m at a crossroads in my life. I look down each road and weigh the options in my mind to see which would be the better road. Frankly I don’t like any of my choices.

I never thought I would say this but I am very thankful I’m starting therapy in a few weeks. Maybe she can help me get my head on straight and teach me some stress managing skills.

I tried to meditate yesterday but I’m so tensed up and so stressed I couldn’t get my body to relax enough and that is the first time I’ve never been able to get there. I long to feel those few minutes of serenity that you get from it.

Sunday was uneventful, well we did have a bit of excitement and I will be blogging about that with pictures. :)

I’ve completely lost my train of thought for this blog so I’m gonna stop right here.