Release Me

I took the above pic a few weeks ago. Within this pic I see the past ending and no longer hanging on to it. I also see a slew of brand new possibilities where ever the road of life takes me.  Which is not surprising at all because that’s pretty much whats going on with me. I’m working on getting my life together. To become a better me, no longer letting people walk over me as if I were a rug. Some of these changes are hard and others are so natural it’s like breathing.

Today, I had a bit more pain then normal in my back and leg but in spite of that I had a nice day.  I went to the pain clinic then met my daughter and her friend for lunch. We went to Red Robin’s. I had never been there before but was glad we went as it was yummy and they had wonderful service.  Came home and played with Sarah for a bit before the girls got home from school.  Later we ordered pizza and watched a movie and ate our pizza in front of the tv. 

After all were in bed I started feeling a little down thinking about different things. Eliminating the toxic people from life was easy at first but it also left a hole where they used to be.  So when I get down I try to get my brain busy so I don’t have to think about it. Tonight though it wasn’t working. Then something wonderful happened.

I had been charging my daughter’s MP3 player. It was fully charged and I unplugged it and somehow I turned it on. While trying to figure out how to turn it off I saw what song was playing. It was “Release Me” I stared at it for about 15 seconds thinking this is telling me something and it hit me. I was receiving a message. By releasing the toxic people I am releasing the toxicity that was in me by associating with them.  Toxic people are draining and can really change a person’s moods. They try and drag a person into their world.  So while I have released them I am also releasing myself.

Now truth be told I AM still a little down but I know that this shall pass and I will be for the better of it.

By the way her MP3 player is still on. I gave up on turning it off. *shrugs*