Operation Change

Happy Thursday to my family, friends, and fellow bloggers! I hope that your day is/has started off on the right note.

Operation Change for 2011 is officially underway! While change can and usually is a very scary thing it’s always for the best in the end.  I sat down, looked around the house and thought to myself what is it that I really want out of life? Only I can answer that question and ultimately only I can make the changes.  I’ve reflected on several things and I know what needs to be done. If I look at it everything that needs to be done as a whole I get anxious and don’t do anything about it.  So with that, I’m going to start small. Sort of like when you want to lose weight. It didn’t all come on your body over night so it’s not going to leave your body over night. You have to work to lose that weight and it’s a long process with lots of baby steps in between. 

I’m a firm believer of what you put out into the universe you’ll get back. I kept wondering why things were coming back to me in such a negative way and it hit me. A light bulb came on and I had the answer.  It’s not that I was doing bad things, it was the fact that I was so woe as me. Poor Jamie, her back hurts, she’s got cancer….blah, blah, blah.  While these things are true I don’t have to let them get me down. While we all have bad days, I don’t need to let all my days be bad. Yes I have a butt load of health problems. But why let these health problems have me. They don’t define who Jamie is, they are only a small part of me. Like an onion, you start peeling back the layers, well one layer would be my health problems but there are so many other layers filled with good, love, and hope.  You see what I mean? It’s a wonderful thing.

  Right now I’m reading two different books. Magical Housekeeping by Tess Whitehurst and Whats A Disorganized Person To Do? Both these books are part of a long process in healing myself from within. It’s a baby step in the process of Operation Change. 

Right now I take all these pills every night.

That’s just at night, I have some I take in the morning also then two I take off and on through out the day.  My hope is to be able to get off of a few of these pills. Learning some new pain management techniques and eliminating stress from life will be a huge help. So lets see where I am this time next year.

 

I have several blogs I would love to do and to be honest I have no reason why I haven’t done them yet other then just haven’t been able to keep my mind still long enough to write anything.  So be on the lookout for Christmas and Sarah’s birthday.  Of course anything in between too.

So with that I hope to blog again a lot sooner. Meanwhile, if your looking for some relaxing music take a peek at this.