Oncologist

My oncologist called today.  They want me to call them back to see up appts to get my thyrogen shots and get set up for my whole body scan.  I didn’t catch the call so it went to voice mail. I had an instant anxiety attack at just the thought of going through all of that.

I know in my support group a lot of the members go through with it and it’s no big deal to them. To me it scares the shit outta me.  I don’t want that radiation pill in my body. With my back there is no way I can lay on that table for that long to get the scan. 

Going on the low iodine diet is expensive and time consuming.  I pretty much starved last time. There isn’t enough money to buy all the food my family needs and then to buy all the expense stuff I need to go on that diet. 

Most of all I don’t want that radiation in me. It scares the crap outta me.  I’ve been doing research and the Mayo clinic has early studies out saying as long as your blood work comes out good and your neck ultrasound looks good there is no reason to go through all of that. 

On top of being scared shitless about the WBS I have so many new health problems I just don’t know if I can handle it. 

I talked to my regular doctor about it a few months ago and he suggested I get the WBS as well, that the amount of radiation was small. 

I have to call my Oncologist back and I don’t know what to do.  She’s recommending I get it and my GP is as well. My gut tells me no.  Just writing this I”m feeling frantic and feel another anxiety attack brewing so I’m gonna end this blog here.